Thoughts 7.11.21

Today I’m anxious by our ability and capacity for change. I’m intrigued by the extrinsic and intrinsic factors all too often presenting us opportunities for change. I’m aware more today than before the constant barrage of society, the nudging of friends, the pressures so often found in family to achieve and better ourselves. To adapt, to strive, to do. We have this infinite chasm in our being, seeking satisfaction. “Eternity has been placed in our hearts” is how Ecclesiastes describes it. But the passage follows up with a short but profound statement. “Yet no one can fathom what God has done.” The second half of this verse is simultaneously full of despair and peace for me. Attempting in our finite lives to fill an infinite hole is like playing a game you have no chance of winning. It’s like playing darts in the dark. Every once in a while you might hit the board, but for the most part it’s a lost cause. I think what I am thinking about today is really this: maybe I have been trying to fill an infinite hole with finite things, my own existence included. I’m going to instead again look to the incarnation of the infinite and allow Him to satisfy this chasm. In embracing the insatiable life we’ve been given I think we will start to find the peace and satisfaction I notice we seem to be longing for. And then realizing there is something else available to us in which we don’t need to strive for or attempt to achieve, all we need to do is receive. In life you might sometimes hit the board, yet it doesn’t mean you should devote your life to hitting a target in the dark… especially when the light switch is within arms reach.