Thoughts 12.10.21

I think at times in life we talk ourselves out of the full range of our emotions. We calm ourselves down or we psych ourselves up. We take the deep and pure of our emotion and we psychoanalyze it to the point where we boil it down into a version of itself hardly recognizable as it’s true form. We take anger and we make it annoyance. We take euphoria and we make it amusement. It’s like sticking a wolf in front of mirror and telling it to see a turtle. Sometimes our rational psyche doesn’t make sense. I think at times we need to feel what is in us. We need to let the wolf be a wolf. Hungry, vicious, pure. Though here me, I am by no means advocating for irrational and unregulated emotional manifestation- because these tend to breed behaviors more toxic than the emotions themselves. Emotions in my opinion were never meant to dictate our behavior or control our persona - I have first hand seen this be something more werewolf than wolf, but - these emotions of ours do tend to be invaluable indicators of where we are at, and what we are feeling. I think for me, and maybe for you, lately we have allowed ourselves to feel less. To suppress, belittle and shut down certain emotions due to the way we have seen them manifested in the lives of our irrational and perhaps unhealthy friends and neighbors. However I think we do ourselves and those closest to us a deep disservice, when we suppress our pure emotions, especially when we suppress them in the context of trust and love most of us find ourselves in. Emotional authenticity doesn’t require 100% trust and love. In fact I think even 15% will do (paired with forgiveness and grace). Next time you feel something deep and primordial rising from dark depths or descending from the cosmic colors of your Being… do yourself, me and those around you a favor. Savor this call from the chasm of your Being. Embrace it. Allow it to push you into a more true version of yourself. Identify the emotion. Sit with it for a moment and then if it is honest and appropriate - let it run wild. The greatest art, song, word, architecture, design, craft, visualization and more is still yet to be done. And the greatest artists are those who allow their deepest emotions a space in their lives. God above set eternity in our hearts, and I think He meant for us to wrestle beautifully with the intersection of our emotional mortality and the cosmic emotional infinity of the eternal.